Monday, January 4, 2010

Another Bust

My appointment to check my follies and lining was originally set for CD 14 at 9:00am. My RE's surgery day is also Tuesday; therefore, I couldn't get a later appointment. However, I really didn't want to miss school again. So, they instructed me to call ahead and see if is she had surgeries schedule or not (if not my appointment could be changed). I finally got a hold of them today. I told them that I thought I may have been about ready to trigger. They were able to see me today, at 4:00pm.

Good news, my lining was great! I have really never had an issue with that. I had one follie that was a little over 5mm on my left side. On my right side, I had one smaller and one nice follie at 19mm. Perfect size to trigger! But, guess what? The right side it the WRONG side. I no longer have a tube on that side. I don't know what else to say, but to simply say that I am bummed. This cycle is a bust!

My RE mentioned something about upping my F.emara dosage from 5mg to 7.5mg next cycle (2 to 3 pills) to try to produce follies. She also wants to test my progesterone just to see what it's like on F.emara. Grrr! So, I now have to get my progesterone checked next Wednesday and it will mean nothing. She thinks I will ovulate Wednesday-ish. So, I am now waiting on AF. ... I think I want to talk to her about an injectable/IUI.

The car ride home was ... well, we won't talk about that.

Honestly, I am not sure what I want to do. I am unsure of what my heart is able to handle at this point. My emotions and thoughts are running wild. I walked in the door and immediately indulged myself in chocolate chip cookies. Dinner tonight consisted of corndogs, chips and a P.epsi. Tomorrow, I will return to my TTC diet. And, hopefully, I'll start thinking more positively about next cycle.


Amber said... [Reply to comment]

That is SOOOO frustrating. I am so sorry and I hope for much better luck next cycle!!!

Courtney said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry. :-( Indulge yourself as much as you want and I hope that you are able to move forward with another cycle soon.

Kari said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry. I hope that your are able to come up with a plan and your next cycle is a success, whether you increase the Femara or do injectibles. Take good care of yourself.

Michelle said... [Reply to comment]

I gotta say.. I medicate with food too. And it feels so good. Sometimes you just need it. I'm back on the treating my body right plan..until the next Dr's. visit. :)

Jane said... [Reply to comment]

Sorry your cycle is a bust. How frustrating! Hopefully next cycle will go better. Good luck!

Rach said... [Reply to comment]

So sorry this cycle may not go through.

Ugh! The worst thing about IF is the CONSTANT waiting. Sucks.

AMC said... [Reply to comment]

Oh RATS! I am so sorry honey. Gosh, I really had my hopes up. It's amazing what a dinner like that can do for the soul.

Katie said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry to hear about your stinking ovary. Why couldn't it have been the left?! Oh, the injustice. I'm glad you indulged...definitely a day where you deserve to. Hang in there.

Circus Princess said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry!
Am I understanding it right that you're going back to IUI after an IVF and FET? What's the reasoning? Sounds like your chances would be so much better with IVF seeing that you have one functioning tube.

Sorry for being so curious, just hoping so much to see you succeed!

Take care of you self. No harm in a little chocolate :)

Shanny said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry and frustrated for you. We go through way too much during any given cycle and for it to have to be cancelled sucks a bit more than if it didn't work cause at least then you would have had a shot. I can imagine your state of mind, go ahead and feel how you need to feel and then come back and kick IF in the butt. ((hugs))

Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

Oh NO! I'm SO SO SO sorry :( This is just so frustrating and sucks so bad. I wish I could come to where ever you are and give you a great, big hug.

Priscilla said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry Rachel. It just sucks!! What a bummer. Try to hang in there!!! We're all here rooting for you and your DH!!

'Murgdan' said... [Reply to comment]

Corndogs and chocolate chip cookies....sounds perfect after the kind of day you had.
Sorry this all sucks.
Thanks for delurking today...

Emily said... [Reply to comment]

So sorry. I know that feeling. I hope you can jump right back in for next cycle. What's the plan? Another IVF or IUI?

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AMC said... [Reply to comment]

I am still thinking of you.

Hillary said... [Reply to comment]

I totally hear you about feeling so lost! Thinking of you and I'm sorry :(

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