Thursday, June 17, 2010

I'm Here

My motto the last few days has been to focus on the good and not the bad. Of course, that’s easier said than done. No one should have to go through a miscarriage let alone more than one. This is one of the toughest things that has happened to me in my life and it’s happened three times.

DH has been wonderful these past few weeks. He has been waiting on me hand and foot, getting me out of the house and dealing with my emotional breakdowns.

I have so much to say…
• The morning sickness has gotten worse. It’s been over a week since I stopped my medications. I called my RE’s office Tuesday like I was instructed to do so. After several phone calls, it has been decided that we may need to complete a D&C. Right now, the surgery is scheduled for next Thursday at 1:00pm EST. If something happens before then, I am to call my nurse. I have already registered at the hospital and a nurse will be calling me tomorrow to tell me all of the details.
• I have golfed twice in the last week. I haven’t got to golf much in the past few years due to fertility treatments, so getting out on the course has been great. I even got a new driver!
• Our three year anniversary is next week (Wednesday). Last year, we didn’t get to go way due to our IVF cycle. So, I have planned a short get-a-way for us next Tuesday and Wednesday. (My RE’s surgery day is Tuesday. So, I guess I got some strings pulled to get my surgery on Thursday). DH has no clue where we are going!
• I bought a new program called S.crapbook F.actory. I totally revamped our profile. Want good news? We printed them off Tuesday and turned them into the agency today!
• We also emailed our letter and photos to the agency that will be on their website. It’s such a relief to have all of that complete
• Our graduate class is going….. well, it’s going. I can’t wait until it’s over. As of the coming Sunday, it’s half way over.
• DH and I have been sanding our back deck. We bought our house new a couple years ago, but our deck had never been stained. For many reasons, we never got around to it. So, that’s what we are trying to get done around the house.
• I have all of the paperwork filled out to fax to the immunologist that we have been referred to, but we can’t send it until this pregnancy is resolved. The receptionist that I talked to at the office said it normally takes two weeks to get an appointment.


Glass Case of Emotion said... [Reply to comment]

Reading your blog is like reading a similar chapter to my own life. I am so sorry that miscarriages take time. It's so brutal. Best wishes on the adoption.

Rach said... [Reply to comment]

Glad to hear there are a lot of great things going on to keep you busy. So sorry you have to go through surgery next week. Happy your husband has been such a great support.

Priscilla said... [Reply to comment]

Your resilient attitude is amazing!! My thoughts and prayers are with you a lot these days!! xox

Kari said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry you are going through this, and 3x is truly unfair. I've been there twice and it is an awful place to be. I'm glad you have good things going on in your life as well to help you get through this time. I'm sorry you have to have surgery too, it's not fun. I hope you and your husband are able to enjoy your get away and have a wonderful anniversary!!

Faith said... [Reply to comment]

Uggghh, I don't know how you have just waited to see what happens. With both of my losses, I did a D&C right away. My babies just stick...forever! So, I never bleed or anything. I wish you luck in the surgery.

Have fun on your fun getaway! And congrats on moving forward in the adoption process!

Hang in there, girl. These tough times will pass...

Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

I'm praying all goes well for your surgery. I'm glad that you've been able to keep busy lately, I hope that helps a bit. I've got my fingers crossed for your adoption process. *hugs*

Princess Jo said... [Reply to comment]

Hoping everything will go okay with your surgery etc.

I am sorry for your loss: totally inadequate and cliched in a situation that just sucks.

Jo from ICLW

Miss Ruby said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry to hear of your recent loss. Multiple miscarriages are horrible, they leave your soul scarred forever, we've had 8.

Good to read though, that you have alot on your plate to keep you busy, that's half the battle, it's when you have too much time to think that the sadness sets in!

Keeping my fingers crossed for you that you get to experience motherhood sooner rather than later.

Here for ICLW
Rach @
#26 The Gal Who Wants to be Anywhere But Where She Is
#27 Miss Ruby

Crossed Fingers said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. *hugs* It's so horrible people have to go through that.

I'm glad you are getting things done for the house and yourself! I hope you enjoy your get away! DH & I just went on a week long trip and it was the perfect recharge!

ICLW #135

Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope your anniversary get away is nice and relaxing, sounds like you guys deserve it! Best wishes!!

Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry that you had to go through 3 miscarriages. I just went through my first and it's incredibibly hard to deal with. I really hope that you do get your baby soon, whether it be your own or through adoption! All the best!

ICLW #25

Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry. My heart and prays are with you both during this time. (((HUGS))


Britt said... [Reply to comment]

Our lives have so many parallels. I am so sorry for your loss. Hope your week gets better and I am praying for you today.

Jem said... [Reply to comment]

Wishing you a quick resolution to your m/c. Do know that you are not alone out here.

~Jem (ICLW #56)

Mrs. Gamgee said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry for your loss... It's such a tough road to walk, but it sounds like you are staying strong. Sending prayers that your surgery and recovery go quickly and you are able to move forward soon.


Lori said... [Reply to comment]

Bless your heart. I can only imagine what you are going through as you wait and anticipate. I am so, so sorry.

I hope that you will get information that gives you some peace and hope from the immunologists and I hope that your adoption goes smoothly and brings a little one to love and raise into your life.

ICLW 105


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