Tuesday, June 8, 2010


The ultrasound today confirmed a blighted ovum. At both appointments, we had a gestational sac measuring several days ahead of what it should. Last Thursday, the day after the first ultrasound, I started throwing up and I haven’t stopped since. This is miserable. I would happily be sick all day everyday if it would be leading to a healthy pregnancy, but this is not. So, I am ready for it to be gone.

I am to stop my medication immediately. This morning was my last dose of PIO. Of course I will continue my S.yntroid and my RE wants me to continue my M.etanx.

This is our third miscarriage. Our first was in March 09, we were able to miscarrying at home after only 3 days being off of medications. My betas were very low. Our second miscarriage was last August after our fresh IVF cycle. This pregnancy was twins, one baby that lost its heartbeat and another blighted ovum. We had a D&C.

I am beginning to wonder if my eggs could be part of the problem. I have never had CD3 (FSH) blookwork. I think that I would like to.

My RE has referred me to Dr. K.wak-Kim in Illinois. She specializes in immunology and RPL. We are hopeful that our insurance will cover all or at least some of the testing that she is going to do. I heard that she is one of the best. Heck, now we get to plan a mini-vacation to Chicago this summer!

We have no intentions to cycle anytime soon. Summers are the only option and money of course is a concern. So, the earliest that we may cycle would be next summer. Right now, we are going to focus on our adoption and see where that leads us. We want to go through the testing to see what we may be dealing with in the future… more on that in the future.

So, for now…we are doing all the things that we haven’t been able to do lately.

Waiting to miscarry is torture.


Jess said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry. I have heard a lot of good things about Dr. Kim. There are several ladies on the Stepping Stones infertility forum that have gone to her and had success. You can go to the forum and search for posts about her. stepforums.bethany.org

Adventures in Baby Waiting said... [Reply to comment]

My heart goes out to you. I am so so sorry. There aren't words to express my sympathy.

Rach said... [Reply to comment]

Aw, this is awful. I'm so sorry. I hope the new doctor can help with some answers. I'm in shock no one ever looked at your egg reserve. Best wishes with the adoption and future cycle plans. I'll be thinking about you.

Kari said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. It's truly not fair. I would have rather dealt with BFN's than my two m/c's. I hope that the new doctor is able to give you some answers or at least a direction to go in. We didn't get answers from our tests but I insisted I be treated as though I had a clotting disorder, Lovenox, baby aspirin, B6 & B12, plus extra folic. I'm sorry that you will have to wait until next summer to cycle again too, but I hope the adoption path continues to move forward quickly. Take good care of yourself and your husband during this difficult time.

Kelly said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry. This is just terrible. I wish there were something more I could say. (((HUGS)))

Jacksmom said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry. I hope the other specialist can shed some light on these things for you and that your insurance covers it.

Cape Girl said... [Reply to comment]

I am so, so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Leah said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry about your miscarry. Thinking of you

Life Happens said... [Reply to comment]

I am sorry! I hope the new doctor can help figure out the cause. I pray the the adoption may continue to come along for you. Thinking of you!

KT said... [Reply to comment]

We are from the western suburbs of Chicago...so let me know if you need any tips on the area.

When I had my miscarriage, I also was very ill...I knew immediately that something was wrong (as I had 11 wonderful weeks prior to...) couldn't keep anything down. Isn't that strange...some are ill when pregnant...and then there are those of us who are sick when it ends. Either way...sad times...no fun. Keeping you in prayers -

Jennifer said... [Reply to comment]

Oh Rachel, I am so very sorry. Hopeful that this dr in Chicago will get to the bottom of things. Hoping the adoption moves along smoothly and that next summer is a great cycle!

Faith said... [Reply to comment]

Oh, hun, so sorry. It is very odd to have 2 blighted ovums, I hope you can get some answers! I agree with someone above who said I would rather have had BFNs than my two miscarriages. They are so terrible. I had to do D&Cs, which I also had to wait through weekends for. I just wish it wasn't so painful to you.

Best of luck in your adoption process. There is so much excitement that can be had in that process, but first we have to grieve and let go a little. I hope you are able to do that, in time.

Take good care of yourself....

Circus Princess said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry, this is more than anyone should have to deal with. I hope the future holds good things from here on.

Take care of yourself. Sending lots and lots of hugs!

Priscilla said... [Reply to comment]

Sending lots of hugs and empathy. I am so sorry for your pain. I think about you a lot.

Shanny said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry, my thoughts are with you hon, this is very unfair =(

Suzanne said... [Reply to comment]

I am so very sorry that you are going through this. You are in my thoughts and prayers. HUGS!!!

Glass Case of Emotion said... [Reply to comment]

Just found your blog. I am also in the uncomfortable position of waiting to miscarry after an IVF. And I am in the beginning stages of pursuing adoption.

You are in my thoughts at this hard time, I am going to follow your blog...


Anonymous said... [Reply to comment]

I wish I were able to hug you, I am so sorry you are going through this yet again. I hope that you find some answers and never deal with this again. You are in my prayers..

Becky said... [Reply to comment]

I don't know what to say but I'm sorry you have to go through this. Praying for peace. Blessings.


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