Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Show & Tell

I have been blogging since 4.09, but never made my thoughts/experiences public. At this point, only one family member reads along as my DH & I discuss our TTC history and journey ahead. Some of our other family members know about our struggles but only to a minimal degree. Here, I am able to share my times of good news, days that aren't so swell, test results and possible plans for the future. Right now, this blog is dedicated to our journey to becoming parents. One day, this blog will be turned into a place to share memories of our child or children to come.

For my first Show & Tell, I would like to show you a picture of DH & I at our wedding (6.23.07). It was one of the best days of my life. I can't believe at this point, which in all reality wasn't that long ago, we had no idea of our struggles to come. We both wanted to have children young. We decided to start trying in the summer of 2008. Well, I couldn't wait. I told my DH "it's unlikely it will work the first month. So, why not start trying now?" Of course, DH went along with what I wanted. That was at the end of March. As the months started to pass, I just knew something was wrong. Being a science teacher, I researched. I quickly learned about OPKs, temping, ovulation and I also learned that nothing about mine added up. Four doctors, many tests, two surgeries, tons of ultrasounds, countless medicines, two miscarriages and three sweet Angel Babies later... I am here. I am recovering from my D & C waiting for my follow-up appointment to once again make a plan.

In the past months, I have struggled with the idea of HOPE. I know I need to have a positive attitude and try to be as stress free as possible.... but who are we kidding. This TTC/infertility stuff is beyond a word, an explanation.

As I sit here looking at this picture, I pray that HOPE is once again instilled in me... in us.

Don't forget, to complete your own Show & Tell & to read others!


beebles said... [Reply to comment]

I will pray for you too....thank you for sharing....

Kristin said... [Reply to comment]

What a lovely picture of the two of you. I'm sorry for all you have gone through.

Hannah said... [Reply to comment]

What a beautiful picture. We all need to have hope & faith when TTC. Good luck to you guys!

K said... [Reply to comment]

I find myself blogging about Hope a lot. I'm sorry that your journey has put you in the Land of IF, but I do think you will find some excellent company along the way.

Lavender Luz said... [Reply to comment]

Welcome to Show & Tell! I look forward to more from you.

During my IF days, I had such a dysfunctional relationship with Hope. She can be so fickle!

Nice to "meet" you, Rachel. You are (were) a lovely bride, with a most handsome groom.


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